Ruminating. I’m so tired of hearing this word. Really I’m so very tired of experiencing this. Well I was until I finally found the solution to this problem and it’s quite obvious.

Forgiveness. I know, this has been discussed over and over but, it’s true. Forgiveness is for you. For your sanity.

When I couldn’t forgive my mind was locked in a cage. I cried and prayed for the thoughts to stop, “God please make it stop!”

I tried to block it out, I tried to replace replaying bad encounters with affirmations, “my mind is a safe space,” I’d repeat.

I tried to take Ashwaganda, but none of that worked. None of it was sustainable. Moments, hours, or days later, the thoughts returned and burned.

What stopped the thoughts was when I finally forgave everyone included myself. I gave everyone grace and understanding, including myself. I released it all. I didn’t care who did what to me no matter how extreme, enough was enough.

In that very moment, I set myself free. Im not exaggerating when I say a weight lifted from my being instantly. It was as if a new free spirit had taken over. I haven’t had a replay since. Nor have I practiced what closure would sound like from me or them. Instead I wanted nothing and in returned got everything.

Forgiveness is for you. Release it. It feels more than amazing to forgive and forget. Holding on was truly blocking everything I wanted and needed.

It’s not a hyperbole to say abundance flew in immediately after, so did joy, and peace. I am human I have concerns but worries, doubt, and rumination can’t find me anymore.

I am so grateful to know what it feels like to really forgive and moving forward I know to forgive quickly, and I mean immediately (in my NeNe Leaks voice).