I have to stop holding off on things I need to take care of because the minute I make time to get it done, I sets in that I made a mountain out of a mole hill, and I don’t exactly know why.

Most of the time it’s regarding money. Oh yeah they call it having a scarcity mindset or the feeling that there is not enough of something essential in life. So, I automatically don’t want to deal with it possibly becoming an expensive problem. 

I don’t want to making an issue, that’s not even really an issue, more of an issue. 

First why do I even think of it as an, “issue” in the first place when it’s just, life. 

• Having to update my insurance to the correct info to avoid my registration being suspended 

• Putting money in my ez-pass to to avoid my account being CLOSED 

Ohhhhh that’s what it is. 

It’s the threat. 

The threat you’d think would encourage me to say, “let me take care of this non issue while I have the means to do so.”

But instead I hold off EVERY time. 

My mind always wonders to, ugh now it’s gonna cost an arm and a leg. Or just immediately feeling burdened with no thought. Without considering, I have to pay SOMETHING regardless. Why not figure it out, sooner than later. 

I don’t know what it is but I do know by the time I have the mental capacity to deal with my responsibilities as an adult. I feel relieved. The process is easy, simple. I’m treated with kindness even often paying less than expected. 

Growing from this.